so i’ve been trying to learn german.  i’ve been wanting to for a long time, but it wasn’t offered at my highschool, and i could never fit it into my schedule in college.  now that i am in this weird post-grad limbo, i figure it’s the perfect time.  i find that listening to music really helps when it comes to language learning, especially with pronunciation, which is particularly helpful for me because i don’t have anyone to practice verbally with.  so i’ve been trying to search around the internet for some cool german music.  i don’t know if i’m just looking in the wrong places, or if i’m not looking hard enough, but given all that i’ve found so far, it seems to me like all german music is mid-tempo pop rock (except for this weird kind of rap stuff by some guy called “marteria”, or something like that, which i find endlessly entertaining).  one band that i’m liking is fotos.  the chorus of this song, “mauer”, gets stuck in my head for hours.  my german’s not even close to anything decent yet, but i wanna say that the main line in the chorus is saying “i build a wall”.


Lloyd Braun.


Lloyd Braun.

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do…For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing

— Romans 7:15, 18-19

I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end.

Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened?

But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going.

Because they were holding on to something: there’s some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.

— The Lord of the Rings
J.R.R. Tolkien

That night I kept thinking about Pandora’s box. I wondered why someone would put a good thing such as Hope in a box with sickness and kidnapping and murder. It was fortunate that it was there, though. If not, people would have the birds of sadness nesting in their hair all the time, because of nuclear war and the greenhouse effect and bombs and stabbings and lunatics.
There must have been another box with all the good things in it, like sunshine and love and trees and all that. Who had the good fortune to open that one, and was there one bad thing down there in the bottom of the good box? Maybe it was Worry. Even when everything seems fine and good, I worry that something will go wrong and change everything.

— "Walk Two Moons"
Sharon Creech

*gently sobs and checks into an old folks home*


The militant group Islamic State (Isis) has released a video that purports to show the beheading of second American journalist, Steven Sotloff, according to a monitoring group.

The Site Intel group said it had seen a video of Sotloff being killed, apparently by the same Islamic State fighter who murdered James Foley, also a journalist, in August. 

You can see an archive of his work on Time here: 

(Source: akai-tori)

books read: 10

miles ran: 170.8

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

— Colossians 3:12-14

(Source: carimae, via nevergetusedtoit)